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10 this is my story /b/...
12 > \>be me, 19 yo college freshman
13 > \>this was 10 years ago
14 > \>i had this bro from highschool, pete
15 > \>we were friends, but not exactly bros. he was a cool guy, and i think i was cool to him
16 > \>turns out we applied to the same college and enrolled
17 > \>going to the same classes
18 > \>practically spending all of our time together
19 > \>away from you family, with your high school life behind you, things can get hectic
20 > \>yeah, you are horny teenagers with no real problems to deal with
21 > \>but you still need a friend you can depend on
22 > \>and we were that friend to each other
24 fast forward a couple of months
26 > \>second semester, we start taking this new class
27 > \>and there is this girl in the class
28 > \>not just us, but every fucking human being with a working dick in the entire campus is losing their shit over her
29 > \>ordinary straight girls are ready to become lesbians just for her
30 > \>i mean... man... wow... what an.. angel? a beam of light? deux ex machina descending from heaven? i have no fucking idea
31 > \>a value over 10 is a measurement that applies to us, mere mortals
32 > \>her beauty cannot be calculated or properly abstracted with numbers
33 > \>and looking at her is like something you know you shouldnt do
34 > \>not because its creepy or socially awkward or some other shit
35 > \>its because you feel youre not worthy
36 > \>not for her youre not. no. NOT HER.
37 > \>but we were looking
38 > \>turns out we first saw her practically at the same time
39 > \>and we wanted to point her to one another
40 > \>but we couldnt take our eyes off of her
41 > \>so we sat in some lousy economy class or whatever and drooled over her for half an hour
42 > \>before i whispered... "dude... fuck me..."
43 > \>and it took pete a solid 5 minutes before he could simply say "yeah..."
44 > \>there she was, this 5'9" lady with long wavy auburn hair and emerald green eyes to die for
45 > \>and pretty sure, to kill for
46 > \>sitting just a couple feet away from us
47 > \>yeah... so.. "fuck me..." was the correct response in that situation
50 > \>to this day i cant for the life of me remember what the fuck it was about
51 > \>we were already orbiting her like some lousy asteroids stuck to a massive black hole
52 > \>creepily getting closer and closer to her as she sucked us in
53 > \>bumping to each other and walking like we were drunk and out of our minds
54 > \>i dont know what it was
55 > \>maybe she realized that we were following her like pervs
56 > \>or maybe it was something else
57 > \>halfway to the cafeteria, she just stopped and turned towards us
58 > \>we comedically bumped into each other and stopped as well
59 > \>but her beauty was so miraculous we forgot to look somewhere else
60 > \>i remember her gaze.. it was like the back of our heads blew open and brains splattered all over the hallway
61 > \>those green eyes man...
62 > \>and she smiled. SHE FUCKING SMILED
63 > \>if we werent healthy, fit males in their prime we would have died of heart attack at that moment
64 > \>we couldnt breathe she was so beautiful
65 > \>so there we were, still staring at her, our eyes and mouths wide open
66 > \>we were in our low, waaay low 2 digit IQs at that moment
67 > \>and there she was, in all of her glory
68 > \>like i said, 5'9", long wavy auburn hair, emerald green eyes
69 > \>long curvy and athletic legs, you know, slimmer at the knees
70 > \>well defined muscles on her calves and soft but rigid thighs
71 > \>her ankles were so elegant
72 > \>but her tendons were sprained... as if she were a wild gazelle ready to bolt out at a moments notice
73 > \>her butt... i cant call it an ass. not hers.
74 > \>ass is what girls have.
75 > \>this lady had something else. she had buttocks that required a new definition of the word
76 > \>they were so firm and so well shaped, you could perfectly calculate for pi if you took measurements
77 > \>her breasts... i dont even have the words
78 > \>to this day im still searching for the right words
79 > \>and i will try and describe them later in the story... but i will fail terribly
81 > \>i can still remember what she was wearing that day
82 > \>i know what she was wearing probably better than her on the day she wore them
83 > \>and i know this because pete knew this
84 > \>after she looked at us and smiled
85 > \>just for a few seconds which felt like an eternity
86 > \>she turned around again and kept on walking
87 > \>we just stayed put
88 > \>we couldnt follow her
89 > \>our black hole left us lonely asteroids to the pitch black emptiness of cold space
90 > \>so after the school, we went to our dorm room with no information about her whatsoever
91 > \>no name, no nothing
92 > \>just a mental image of her elegant stance etched deep into our minds
93 > \>i was looking at the pictures of random women with green eyes and auburn hair on yahoo
94 > \>that was the only thing i could do. but none of the images even came close to matching her beauty
95 > \>well.. pete felt like he had to do something
96 > \>and he fucking started searching for her clothes. i shit you not
97 > \>he was searching for her clothes on amazon and ebay and all these fashion and shopping sites neither of us knew nothing about
98 > \>he started with searching for her skirt
99 > \>which was this black wool-cashmere circle skirt with a playful flare at the bottom
100 > \>couple inches above her knees... revealing her thighs just a little bit..
101 > \>when he found it, he shouted "I FOUND IT FUCK YEAH"
103 > \>and i thought he had found "her"
104 > \>but when i saw what he found, which was this i dunno what brand skirt on amazon
105 > \>i was far from being disappointed
106 > \>i was feeling the same way
107 > \>we didnt know her name, but fuck if we didnt know what skirt she was wearing
108 > \>pete kept going with the search and i helped him
109 > \>at the end of the night, we knew what flats she was wearing, what shirt
110 > \>we even knew what brand her red, bow shaped hairclip was
111 > \>i mean... look, we are straight guys
112 > \>i figure im a 7/10, maybe 8, pete is an easy 8/10, pushing 9
113 > \>we are both fit, we dont have ugly pimples on our faces or anything, we are both very decent
114 > \>we are not short or chubby
115 > \>and altho we were not the most popular kids in highschool, we are definitely not social castouts either
117 > \>we were more gay than a male fashion design student wearing pink dungarees and coming out of the closet singing YMCA
118 > \>and we knew what skirt she was wearing... so yeah...
119 > \>and before we went to sleep
121 > \>that motherfucker had the most excellent idea
122 > \>he knew he needed an extra something if he was ever gonna talk to her
123 > \>let alone date her
124 > \>so he decided he should start learning about fashion
125 > \>and use his knowledge as a conversation starter
126 > \>meanwhile, i was feeling like i could go to mars with a new apollo mission
127 > \>or save the world from a new nazi regime all by myself
128 > \>and still wouldnt be able to impress her
129 > \>i was a hopeless faggot
131 > \>next morning, the first thing pete did was to enroll in a class on fashion design
132 > \>pete didnt know if his tactics were gonna work
133 > \>pete didnt know if this magnificent creature would speak fashion with him
135 > \>meanwhile, we were both unable to speak to her
136 > \>we were a bunch of beta fags, scared out of our minds
137 > \>but we learned her name from a friend
139 > \>ella was her name...
140 > \>pete didnt want to waste his chances in leaving a perfect first impression with ella
141 > \>well, the first impression both of us have left was us standing in the middle of the hallway
142 > \>staring at her like we were retarded perverts
143 > \>but speaking to her was a different matter altogether
144 > \>i figured, if pete had no chance of talking to her now
146 > \>besides, pete was so in da zone, i didnt want to compete
147 > \>not that i could, or so i believed...
148 > \>fast forward a couple of weeks
149 > \>pete as a freshman knew more about fashion than seniors knew about economy in our department
150 > \>he was spending his nights browsing fashion blogs
151 > \>every night, he would come to our room, with a list of items she was wearing that day
152 > \>studying her taste in fashion
153 > \>pete told me that this could actually work
154 > \>since while a lot of the girls on campus dressed like trailer trashes
155 > \>ella was always amazing in her choice of clothes
156 > \>our room was filled with editions of vogue and GQ and shit
157 > \>couple of friends have seen our stash of fashion magazines
158 > \>and joked about it
159 > \>so we made a lousy explanation of how they were "quality fapping material"
160 > \>and got away with it
161 > \>one day, pete woke up and turned to me
162 > \>"i'm ready" - he said
163 > \>like neo saying "i know kung-fu"
164 > \>i said "show her"
166 > \>pete decided that whatever she's wearing that day
167 > \>he felt like he could intelligently talk to her about her clothes
169 > \>after the economy class
170 > \>i wished him luck and we parted ways
171 > \>an hour later he found me
174 > \>"i dunno man... i really dunno. i mean, i might as well done great or fucked it up completely"
176 > \>"look, we talked about fashion for an hour"
177 > \>"so, you talked for an hour, thats great man!" - damn we were beta fags
178 > \>"yeah, but what if she thinks that im gay?"
179 > \>i started laughing. pete had a point. straight guys dont usually talk about fashion
180 > \>certainly not about womens fashion
181 > \>suddenly, ella comes out of nowhere
183 > \>pete looked at me and understood that ella was coming our way
185 > \>and i heard ella's voice for the first time
186 > \>she had a crackly, deep voice
187 > \>kinda reminds me of scarlett johansson now...
188 > \>a lot of people dont think that kinda voice is flattering
189 > \>but if you found me a soprano that sings agnus dei
190 > \>i would have told you "shut that woman up and let ella sing"
191 > \>"hey ella!" - said pete, his heart probably skipping a couple of beats
192 > \>"i remembered now... i got it from anthropologie..."
193 > \>i have absolutely no idea what shes talking about
195 > \>"dont mention it... its from last season tho, i dont think you could buy it for your sister. but they might have something similar..."
196 > \>"oh.. well, thank you for telling me ella!"
197 > \>"youre welcome, see you around pete!"
199 > \>and we watched ella walking away from us gracefuly, until she disappeared in the distance
200 > \>still looking at her general direction, as if we could still see her
201 > \>"dude... your sister is 7..."
206 > \>"yeah i know... magnificent..."
208 > \>a week later, pete had another idea
209 > \>in order to not look like a gay couple
210 > \>he suggested that we develop this "manly handshake"
211 > \>and establish that we are in fact, bros
212 > \>like a bunch of idiots, we stayed up all night
213 > \>working out this complex yet subtle (or so we thought) secret handshake
214 > \>our stupidity was at an immeasurable new height
215 > \>pete was chatting up ella, little by little everyday
216 > \>but he was afraid of becoming a gay bff and lose all chance of dating her
217 > \>so he requested me to approach them tomorrow at some point mid conversation
218 > \>and "apply" the handshake
220 > \>after our economy class
221 > \>i gave pete some time
222 > \>then joined them in the cafeteria
223 > \>as i approached them, pete saw me coming
224 > \>excused himself like a true boss gentleman
225 > \>and we started acting out this ridiculous handshake in unison
226 > \>i mean it was absolute bullshit
227 > \>hands and fingers everywhere clicking and fist bumping and doing other various stuff
228 > \>it was like the douchebag version of cirque de soleil
229 > \>halfway thru (yeah it was that long it almost needed an interlude) ella starts laughing her ass off
230 > \>she was laughing like a crazy person
232 > \>the blood drains away from pete's face
234 > \>we realize that we just fucked up
235 > \>we fucked up immensely
236 > \>and we force ourselves to turn and face ella
237 > \>she's trying to silence herself, still laughing
238 > \>pete and i still holding hands like fucktards
239 > \>she tries to apologize for laughing
240 > \>but then she starts laughing even louder
241 > \>we look around and hope that no other person has acknowledged how dumb we look
242 > \>fortunately no one other than ella is laughing
243 > \>but ella is still laughing
245 > \>pete has this "this is how i die" face
246 > \>im all goodbyeworld.jpeg
247 > \>ella's laughter finally dies down
248 > \>and we're looking at her like rabbits caught in headlights
249 > \>"guys... i know you're not gay" - and she starts laughing again
250 > \>pete looks like hes about to shit his pants
251 > \>and i dunno what it was, maybe i started losing my nerve
252 > \>or maybe it was like a chain reaction to ella's laughter
253 > \>i start laughing my ass off as well
254 > \>that "manly handshake" started playing out in my head over and over again
255 > \>and i began to imagine myself doing the handshake
256 > \>and realized how absolutely idiotic it must have looked like
257 > \>pete starts laughing as well
258 > \>all three of us are crying at this point
259 > \>now people are looking at us like wtf
260 > \>and that was how i met ella
261 > \>we finally sit down
262 > \>im still chuckling like an ape
263 > \>i extend my hand towards ella
265 > \>she firmly grabs my hand
266 > \>my god her hands are beautiful
267 > \>long, slender fingers embrace my hairy man paws like the branches of a delicate flower
268 > \>she has a very cold touch
269 > \>almost freezing, but at the same time its such an awakening feeling
270 > \>i can feel the hairs on my forearm rising
271 > \>"hi anon, im ella" - she responds with a warm smile
272 > \>and an incredibly sharp, piercing gaze
273 > \>her spellbinding green eyes are filled with both an "i got you now" attitude and an older sisters love
275 > \>"for how long have you guys practiced that stupid handshake?" - she asks
276 > \>we start blushing like 5 yo kids
278 > \>"all night..." - pete answers as silently as possible
279 > \>ella claps her hands and pops a loud chuckle
280 > \>"i knew it!" - waving her finger towards us - "you guys are insecure!"
282 > \>"oooohh.. its so cute!" - she puts on a funny face, pouting her spectacular pink lips
283 > \>im losing my grasp on english language right about now
284 > \>"well guys, i know youre not gay... but youre definetely homophobic!"
285 > \>"well... were not..." - i try to defend myself futilely
286 > \>"oh its ok, anon!" - she smiles - "i can understand that feeling"
287 > \>pete must be losing his mind.. he just sits there, trying to find a way to regain his composure
288 > \>"oh come on pete, i know you would feel uneasy, talking to me about fashion"
289 > \>pete looks shocked
290 > \>he doesnt understand how he could be sidelined so bad
291 > \>"but..." - he tries to make a case (which i assume he has none)
292 > \>"its really ok pete. i can sense that you have been working on "fashion" (makes a fingerquote) for some time"
294 > \>our jaws are sweeping the floor
295 > \>"how..." - pete mumbles
296 > \>"seriously, i know about your fashion class, and your room full of fashion magazines"
297 > \>ella winks at pete
298 > \>im about to lose my shit
299 > \>pete looks like hes shot by a cupids 50cal machine gun
300 > \>hes crushing hard, madly in love
301 > \>"how did you know?" - i ask, since pete cannot come to the phone right now
302 > \>"well... first of all, i have a friend in pete's fashion class"
303 > \>"and also, some of your chums were talking about your stash and i overheard them"
304 > \>pete silently mouths "fuck me..."
305 > \>"but most of all, pete, i can see that you are new to the fashion world"
306 > \>"where did i go wrong?" - pete must have been losing his hope at this point
307 > \>"well, a fashionista... how can i put it... must look more fashionable, dont you think?"
308 > \>ella was right. granted, pete didnt walk around wearing shitty flip flops and baggy sweat pants
309 > \>but he wasnt actually a fashion icon either
310 > \>pete looks like hes about to burst into tears
312 > \>"besides, your fashion sense has no context. a person who is deeply involved in any subject always speaks in some form of context"
313 > \>as ella talks about pete's failure, i feel both incredibly sad and incredibly turned on
314 > \>maybe im not from a family or a place where there were a lot of smart women around
315 > \>and maybe i was just a dumb homophobic or maybe even sexist fuck
316 > \>who thinks all women learn about everything in life by furiously banging ken and barbie dolls into each other in their childhood
317 > \>but ill be damned if this magnificent woman isnt smart
318 > \>"hey its ok pete" - ella sees pete cringing like a puckered butt hole
319 > \>"i know why you did it, you have nothing to be ashamed of"
320 > \>pete lightens up like someone stuck a needle full of adrenaline into his chest
321 > \>meanwhile, im lost in ella's eyes... studying her beautiful face as she talks
322 > \>"so, im going to give you your chance! go ahead, ask"
323 > \>"a-a-a-ask what?" - pete shits the bed
324 > \>ella tilts her head and gives him a "really?" face
325 > \>pete comes around again
326 > \>gains his composure like a champ for the first time during the conversation
327 > \>"well.. do you want to grab a cup of coffee with me after school?"
328 > \>ella smiles at him and playfully nods with her eyes closed
329 > \>"i would love that pete" - and she chuckles
330 > \>and i sit there like a faggot thinking of asking "can i come too?"
331 > \>ella is beyond words to me
332 > \>i feel stupid and powerless near her
333 > \>"thank you..." - pete barely makes any sense
334 > \>i cant imagine being in his place right now
335 > \>getting the greenlight from ella after believing that he fucked up so badly
336 > \>ella laughs playfully and changes the subject
337 > \>so we sat there and talked about our lives and how we knew each other for an hour
338 > \>and i was able to get to know ella
339 > \>even if it was for a little bit
340 > \>but it was an amazing experience
342 > \>couple of weeks later
343 > \>pete and ella were a couple
344 > \>ive never seen pete so happy
345 > \>he was over the clouds, all the time
346 > \>the guy was out of his mind
347 > \>counting seconds for their next date everytime he kissed ella goodbye
348 > \>and i was happy for my bro
349 > \>but at the same time
350 > \>i couldnt help but feel uneasy everytime i saw ella
351 > \>ella was still the most amazing woman i have ever seen in my life
352 > \>nothing came remotely close to matching her beauty
353 > \>not to mention her wits
354 > \>and speaking to her was more fun than i could ever have, doing anything
355 > \>and i was trying extremely hard not to fall for her
356 > \>i owed it to my bro and to myself
357 > \>fortunately, ella came to my help
358 > \>she introduced her fried nicole to me
359 > \>nicole was the girl in pete's fashion class, the girl ella was talking about
360 > \>nicole was an incredibly beautiful girl
361 > \>she was this amazing redhead
362 > \>5'6", big soft titties, nice curvy body
363 > \>pale blue eyes, cute little freckles on her face
364 > \>you would think that a beautiful girl like ella wouldnt be bffs with another beauty like nicole
365 > \>9 out of 10 times, you would be right
366 > \>but ella had no competition
367 > \>she was beyond competition
368 > \>ella could have been friends with the biggest bimbo there ever was
369 > \>or she could have been hanging out with a fucking swedish bikini team
370 > \>she could have been sleepwalking in her pjs on a victorias secret catwalk at a new years show for all i care
371 > \>no matter the situation, ella was always the one you looked at first
372 > \>but yeah... nicole was a bombshell too
373 > \>and she was something else entirely...
375 > \>4 of us started hanging out together
376 > \>started going to the parties
377 > \>hanging out after school
378 > \>going to the movies
379 > \>and slowly, nicole and i got very close
380 > \>she had an amazing sense of humor
381 > \>knew a lot about subcultures and shit
382 > \>finally, after a night out together
383 > \>pete and ella decided to go to ella's room by themselves
384 > \>turns out ella's roommate was back at home for a family emergency or something like that
385 > \>and nicole and i kissed
386 > \>soon after, we officialy became a couple
387 > \>after what felt like an eternity, i wasnt interested in ella that much
388 > \>it felt good, not feeling like cheating on my bro
389 > \>nicole was amazing in bed
390 > \>in all things related to sex, she was a dream come true
391 > \>the fantazies she was into were mind boggling
392 > \>the things she wore to turn me on
393 > \>stockings, garterbelts, schoolgirl outfits
394 > \>surprising me with wake up bjs after a long night of sex
396 > \>some nights i would think, how the fuck am i supposed to regain my sexual appetite after this
397 > \>a couple hours later, there she was again
398 > \>wearing something ridiculously sexy
399 > \>doing things you could lose your mind for
400 > \>the places we fucked
401 > \>and the positions we tried were pure pornographic shit
402 > \>it felt like half of my daily diet was being used for producing semen
403 > \>she wouldnt use condoms
405 > \>"wheres the fun in that?" - she asked me the first time we were about to have sex
406 > \>she sucked my dick like a vacuum and swallowed everything
407 > \>smiling like a sassy high school girl
408 > \>always wanting more and more
410 > \>good thing i was fit and young
411 > \>you cant do some of the things she asked for when youre 29
412 > \>i would eat her out until i couldnt feel my tongue
413 > \>the girl was a queen of multiple orgasms
414 > \>there was no stopping until she said enough
415 > \>her sexual needs were so immense, i had a hard time satisfying her...
416 > \>i was scared shitless if there would come a time when im simply not enough
418 > \>she was loyal and honest as fuck
419 > \>never even flirted with the other guys, let alone cheat on me
420 > \>i was really skeptical at first
421 > \>its a complete opposite of what you would expect
422 > \>i somehow raised the issue with a delicate yet curious manner
423 > \>i was treading lightly
424 > \>didnt want to offend her
425 > \>"youre mine anon, and im yours" - she told me
426 > \>"nothing will change that until such a time comes that we both decide otherwise" - she would furiously declare
427 > \>if there ever was a woman made out of wife material
428 > \>nicole was the ultimate prototype
429 > \>her understanding of a relationship was beyond belief
430 > \>and her connection to me was unbreakable
431 > \>she was so incorruptible
432 > \>she would straight up hit the guys trying to chat her up in their faces
433 > \>"you come near me again and i swear to god i will use my entire boyfriend like a retractable baton and fuck you in the ass with him"
434 > \>thats an actual fucking quote i heard her shout at some poor kid
435 > \>HOLY. FUCKING. SHIT.
436 > \>and there i was, standing like a beta fag who has just won the lottery
437 > \>my diamond hard dick pulsating to her commanding voice
438 > \>then she kisses me like there is no tomorrow
439 > \>finds an empty room in a house full of partying people
440 > \>hangs my sock on the door knob
441 > \>and fucks my brains out
442 > \>yeah... that was nicole in a nutshell
444 > \>so i have never imagined there would be trouble at the paradise
445 > \>but come summer time, something else happened
446 > \>my dad asked one of his old friends in LA for an internship position on my behalf
447 > \>his friend accepted me to his firm
448 > \>and while everyone was having a great time
449 > \>i was supposed to work at the accounting department of this design office in LA
450 > \>this meant that i wasnt going to spend my summer satisfying nicole
451 > \>or doing anything fun for that matter
452 > \>before she went to the airport
453 > \>nicole kissed me as if we werent going to see each other again, like ever
454 > \>"you don't forget who you belong to mister..." - she told me with tearful eyes
455 > \>"i wont nicole, i promise"
456 > \>man... the love and care this girl had shown me was something else
457 > \>even tho i told her numerous times that i loved her - and i meant it
458 > \>i had this feeling that my love for her didnt even come close to what she felt towards me
459 > \>"you take care of yourself, you hear?" - and she left, hesitantly walking backwards to her bus to the airport
460 > \>pete had already gone home previous weekend
461 > \>so i was all by myself, walking around in this college ghost town
462 > \>on my way back to the dorm
463 > \>wanting to pack my stuff asap and get ready for my flight to LA
464 > \>there she was, walking towards me
466 > \>"hey! sup anon?" - she greeted me with a warm smile
467 > \>"hey ella... i just sent off nicole"
468 > \>"awww.. you guuuyyss... she cried right?" - with a snappy laugh - "i know she cried!"
469 > \>"haha, well you know her, right?"
470 > \>"she loves you anon, thats why" - ella reached out and stroked my arm, showing the she cared
471 > \>for the first time in quite a while, i suddenly felt a jolt, a rush
472 > \>it was like the time when i first saw her upclose
473 > \>as her cold hands brushed my skin, my pupils dilated
474 > \>like the first sip of a morning coffee
475 > \>a surge of a small dose of adrenaline hit my body
477 > \>i quickly broke out of her spell
479 > \>"so.. where are you off to ella?"
480 > \>"oh.. im leaving tomorrow morning, off to see my parents in LA"
482 > \>"ummm... we might be on the same flight.." - that was the most sexually neutral thing i could think of at that time
483 > \>"you serious? what are you doing in LA?" - ella asked with a delighted curiosity, her big green eyes glimmering with excitement
484 > \>"i have this job my dad arranged for me.. im not exactly going there for a vacation" - i pout
485 > \>"awww.. dont worry anon, ill keep you company, it will be fine i promise" - cheerfully reassuring me
486 > \>my heart skipped a beat
487 > \>before i could say anything
488 > \>"oh! look at the time, i gotta go now, but hey, see you in LA, if not earlier!" - she winked at me
489 > \>she waved and started walking in the other direction
490 > \>after mumbling some non-intelligible verbal expressions like "hey.. ye.. wut.. oh" i waved at her
491 > \>and watched her disappear around the corner
492 > \>and as i was trying to make sense of what just happened, nicole's teary eyed face kept coming into my mind
493 > \>i felt like a complete asshole
494 > \>what the fuck am i so excited about?
495 > \>i mean... ella is my bro's gf
496 > \>shes bffs with my gf
497 > \>what the fuck am i thinking
498 > \>why am i suddenly feeling awkward again?
499 > \>i tried not to think about it and started walking away
500 > \>next morning was even harder for me
501 > \>we were on the same bus to the airport
502 > \>and when it was time to check in to our flight
503 > \>we were side by side
504 > \>naturally, you cant ask to be seated elsewhere when the person youre trying to avoid is right next to you
505 > \>i couldnt believe that i was thinking about being seated elsewhere too
506 > \>ella was not only a friend
507 > \>she was also the one person i had to think of almost as a sister
508 > \>i kept texting nicole to make sure that i was ok
509 > \>reminding myself of "who i belonged to"
510 > \>i was scared, because it wasnt helping at all
511 > \>acting like everything is alright
512 > \>i boarded the plane with ella
514 > \>after chatting for a bit with ella
516 > \>after some time, i did too
518 > \>her head was on my shoulder
519 > \>and my head was on hers
520 > \>her fragrant hair was all over my face
521 > \>she smelled of vanilla and berries
522 > \>her gorgeous scent was so enchanting, i started getting the strangest boner of my life
523 > \>i was unsure about what to do
524 > \>do i slowly back off?
525 > \>do i keep leaning against her head and savor the moment?
526 > \>what the fuck am i thinking? why is this an issue?
528 now i know there must be a lot of you out there, calling me a beta fag
529 but if bros before hoes doesnt apply here, then where else?
531 > \>the only thing i was able to do was to raise my head out of her hair
532 > \>and sit upright as best as i could
533 > \>i couldnt bring myself to pull away from her
534 > \>then as if things couldnt get any worse
535 > \>she mumbled in her sleep and put her hand on my chest
536 > \>embracing me as if she was sleeping next to pete
537 > \>her beautiful hand was lightly hanging on to my shirt
538 > \>her cold fingertips gently grazing my bare chest
540 > \>pete's voice is ringing in my ears
541 > \>"i love her man, i fucking love her" - the time he told me at a party, watching ella from the other side of the room
542 > \>with an admiration and love i havent seen before on any mans face
543 > \>then i remember nicole again
544 > \>and the discernment and the loyalty she has displayed time and again in the face of temptation
546 > \>concentrated, wc clogging brick of a shit
548 > \>an excruciating hour later she woke up
549 > \>she blinked her eyes rapidly as she tried to sober up
550 > \>and yawned and stretched
551 > \>i was losing my mind to the sight of her delicate body
552 > \>as every muscle on her body vibrated and contracted
553 > \>i was trying to force myself to look away
556 > \>she looked at me with her sleepy green eyes
557 > \>"oh, sorry anon... i get very untidy in my sleep" - she chuckled
558 > \>"no worries.." - i tried to match her chuckle nerveously
559 > \>shortly after that, we landed
560 > \>her parents came to welcome her
561 > \>she introduced me to them
562 > \>they were nice people, really warm and welcoming
563 > \>her mom, after learning that i was gonna be alone in LA
564 > \>invited me to their place
565 > \>i kindly declined their invitation, telling that my father has already rented an appartement for me
566 > \>"well, next week, you must at least come have dinner with us then!" - ella ordered
567 > \>"ok then, deal" - i accepted her offer with a million questions and ideas racing in my mind
568 > \>shortly after we parted ways, i called nicole and talked to her for an hour
569 > \>trying to remind myself of who i am
570 > \>and texted pete, telling him about how ella and i were on the same flight to LA
571 > \>i hated myself for feeling that an explanation was necessary
572 > \>"hey pete, dont worry buddy, my dick wasnt fully erect the whole time she was sleeping on my shoulder" - sorta thing
573 > \>"it got hard only when she started stretching her muscles... its aaaiight.."
576 > \>i settled at home
577 > \>met people at work
578 > \>its boring but its ok
579 > \>im in LA, lots of things to do
580 > \>lots of free time when im not working 9 to 5
581 > \>and its only part time so i only work 3 days a week
582 > \>a week later ella picks me up from work
583 > \>and we go to her house like i promised
584 > \>everythingwentbetterthanexpected.jpeg
585 > \>her parents are really cool
586 > \>lots of drinking, talking, joking around
587 > \>she has a younger brother, jake
589 > \>he is a nerd but he is handsome in the same way ella is beautfiul
590 > \>fucking little man is on his way to become a motherfucking 10/10 alpha
591 > \>i start talking to him
592 > \>we hit it off really well
593 > \>i start playing vidya with him in his room
596 > \>turns out ella is a hardcore gamer
597 > \>then the feeling returns once more
598 > \>ella is sitting between me and jake
599 > \>and im trying to hide my boner under a n64 controller
600 > \>feeling like im cheating on nicole again
601 > \>i start drooling as she kicks our asses in mario kart
602 > \>"oh well..." - ella rubs jake's head
603 > \>and she turns to me and winks
604 > \>"i dunno what you guys were expecting"
605 > \>i forget how to speak english as i see her smug face next to mine
606 > \>her piercing green eyes
607 > \>her sharp, pointy nose couple inches away from me
608 > \>her cheeks, red like apples after the rush and excitement of the game
609 > \>tiny drops of sweat rolling down on her delicate neck
610 > \>my mouth is wide open
611 > \>she starts laughing when she sees my dumb as fuck face
612 > \>"i only play adventure games anyway, monkey island and such..." - i try to bail out
613 > \>"oh is that right, mr. threepwood?" - ella teases me
614 > \>OMFG im about to drop dead
615 > \>her mom calls us for dessert and coffee
616 > \>i stay for another hour, then her dad drives me back to my place
618 > \>next week, she called me and asked if i wanna hang out
619 > \>i was afraid of how fast i responded "yes!"
620 > \>she showed me the sights
621 > \>we went to her favorite places
622 > \>eating ice cream, hanging out in cafes and shit
623 > \>about a month and a half into my stay in LA, i met a couple of her old friends
624 > \>i could easily see that some of her high school boys were still in love with her
625 > \>losing their minds over how lucky they are to see her once again
626 > \>some of them even eyeballed me before ella told them that i was just a friend
627 > \>"just a friend" - she said
628 > \>and for no reason at all, i felt as if my heart imploded
629 > \>whats wrong with what she said?
630 > \>yeah, ofc i was just a friend
631 > \>it wasnt like i was friendzoned or anything
632 > \>she had a bf, i had a gf
633 > \>so i was just a friend
634 > \>but i was heartbroken nonetheless
635 > \>we decided to go to the beach next week
636 > \>so next week, 5 of ella's friends and i were at the beach
637 > \>9/10 - 10/10 girls with slutty thongs all around us
638 > \>everyone is like who gives a shit
639 > \>i was the only horny fuck checking out every piece of ass around us
640 > \>ella was wearing these loose summer pants and an old XL white shirt
641 > \>we find a nice spot
643 > \>then ella starts taking off her pants and shirt
644 > \>.......i force myself to look elsewhere its so painful
646 > \>every fucking person within a 50 feet radius starts looking
647 > \>10/10 girls with tight asses and big tits starts cringing
648 > \>i can see how jealous they feel
650 > \>then i say fuck it
651 > \>i will have to see her body eventually
653 > \>and i look at her
655 > \>just a pair of jet black bikinis
656 > \>in them, the most unquestionably beautfiul woman there ever was
657 > \>her wavy auburn hair streams to her broad but willowy shoulders
658 > \>sharp sunlight is glimmering on her bright green eyes
659 > \>her face is already tanned
660 > \>reddish spots are formed over her soft cheeks
661 > \>her petite pink lips
662 > \>and her sharp, small diamond chin
663 > \>both moisturized by tiny droplets of sweat
664 > \>the elongated and tender tendons on her neck line flows
665 > \>to the most beautiful and deep jugular notch
666 > \>surrounded by her sharp clavicles
667 > \>and then i see them...
668 > \>i dont think ive ever seen such breasts before
669 > \>not with my own eyes
670 > \>not in pictures, not in real life
671 > \>slightly bigger than plump greyfruits
672 > \>and smooth and solid as if they were carved out of marble
673 > \>they stand at attention
674 > \>amused by the incompetence of frail gravity
675 > \>her small nipples, mildly protruding out of her bikini top
676 > \>like searchlights, pointing way up into the sky
677 > \>my eyes hover over that sight for a few seconds
678 > \>and admire her chest like they have seen the most beautiful work of art ever created
681 > \>she has a set of lightly defined muscles surrounding her tummy
682 > \>her waist is lean
683 > \>and forms a very elegant and gentle hourglass shape
684 > \>as they connect to her curvy yet tight hips
685 > \>another piece of black cloth covers the magnificent V shape
686 > \>the sight of a barely concealed bulge on the cloth stops my heart for a second
687 > \>it is an unbelievable awareness, knowing whats behind that cloth
688 > \>there is a small opening beneath her crotch
689 > \>and i can see the sandy beach in the background from between her legs
690 > \>as the lengthy muscles on her thighs expand and contract
691 > \>and shiver and vibrate to the warm breeze of cali
692 > \>her small knees play around
693 > \>and her lower legs keep to the pace
694 > \>as the tanned muscles around her tibias enjoy the sunlight
695 > \>her feet dig shallow spots in the sand
696 > \>tip of her toes curl and point
697 > \>her heels ascend out of the sand and dance in the air
698 > \>ella. words are empty...
700 > \>my eyes were fixed on ella
702 > \>she leans in with a funny smile on her face
703 > \>her youthful breasts come closer to my face than ever before
704 > \>"you are staring anon!" - she says calmly while giggling
705 > \>my face turns into a mexican tomato plantation
706 > \>she walks by me towards the ocean
707 > \>looks back with a smile warmer than midday sun
708 > \>"you coming?" - and runs into the luke warm water while bouncing her perfect fanny
709 > \>"i... im.. in a minute, yeah..."
710 > \>i wasnt about to display the biggest tent of my life in front of everyone
711 > \>she voices a snappy laugh and starts backstroking away from the beach
712 > \>i sit there and start reciting the multiplication table
713 > \>as if i was with nicole in bed, trying to delay the inevitable
714 > \>moments later i join her
715 > \>"um... sorry about before" - i apologize sheepishly
716 > \>"haha! dont worry about it, you should have seen pete's face when he first saw me in my underwear"
717 > \>mfw ellainsexyunderwear.jpg
718 > \>and we're back to where we started. good thing my tent is now underwater
719 > \>i try to speak but all im doing is keeping my mouth open without saying anything
720 > \>ella is laughing hysterically
721 > \>"are your serious anon?"
722 > \>"s-s-serious how?"
723 > \>"are you seriously thinking of me in my underwear right now?"
724 > \>"it.. it comes and goes" - WHAT THE FUCK AM I SAYING
725 > \>ella laughs and splashes water to my face
726 > \>"come on underwear boy! swim!"
727 > \>she starts swimming
728 > \>i have nothing else to do but follow her
729 > \>few moments later she stops swimming and turns to me
730 > \>"hey.. did you call nicole? you guys talking, yes?"
733 > \>"good. you keep doing that. than you can imagine me in my underwear all you want"
735 > \>she chuckles like a prankster and starts swimming back
736 > \>my mouth was like a keyboard with coffee spilled all over it
737 > \>i followed her back to the beach
739 > \>i spent the rest of the day thinking about nicole
740 > \>thinking about pete
741 > \>and thinking about ella
742 > \>i really didnt have to think about ella, since she was suntanning her gorgeous body next to me
743 > \>before everybody went home
744 > \>ella asked me if i wanted to hang out with her next weekend
745 > \>i accepted, naturally
746 > \>after i went home, my dad called
747 > \>told me to get ready for a trip
749 > \>yeah... apparently, i was supposed to go to hong kong
750 > \>turns out, my dad is more connected than i previously believed
751 > \>i had just a week left to spend in LA
752 > \>then it was time for hong kong
753 > \>after i spoke to my dad, pete called
754 > \>his voice was all fucked up
755 > \>told me that ella broke up with her a week ago
757 > \>i switched to bro mode and started calling ella a bitch and whatnot
758 > \>"dude.. stop.." - he said calmly
760 > \>"she was right. this wasnt going anywhere..."
762 > \>"look anon, i have nothing that i can offer to her" - pete started explaining
763 > \>he told me how ella was smarter than him and how it wasnt about sex or being an alpha and all that shit
764 > \>basically like everything else about her, ella was not exactly your usual sorority girl
765 > \>she was in her own alpha-omega-fuckyou club
766 > \>and pete had nothing more than 4 months worth of fashion class and a few dirty jokes to show for an admission
767 > \>"anyways... thought you should know man. take care" - and he hung up
768 > \>i was terrified when i realized my first thought was
769 > \>"now what do i do with nicole?"
771 > \>"what the fuck am i supposed to do in hong kong???"
773 > \>next week, i decided to ask ella about what happened before we went to the museum
776 > \>"sup anon!" - shes cheerful as usual
777 > \>"sup ella... so... pete called me"
778 > \>her head becomes apologetically heavy
779 > \>"sorry for not telling you anon, didnt want you to think less of me before speaking to pete first"
781 > \>ella looks at me, feeling stuck between her friendship with me and my friendship with pete
782 > \>"wasnt working anon.. things dont always work out. what did pete say about me?"
783 > \>"only good things"
784 > \>"what did you tell him?"
785 > \>"me? i was just.. trying to be a bro i guess"
787 > \>"sorry for putting you in that situation"
788 > \>this is the first time ive seen ella unable to drive the conversation
789 > \>she looks way too submissive
791 > \>"hey look.. its ok, its not my place to say anything" - i try to comfort her
792 > \>ella looks at me, almost waiting for my approval
794 > \>"lets move on, shall we? besides, we have a date" - WUUUUT
796 > \>i realize what ive just said and how it might be so easily misunderstood
797 > \>"ok.." - she doesnt push it and saves me from my own demise
798 > \>we get inside the natural history museum and start wandering around aimlessly
800 > \>couldn't tell her that i was leaving for hong kong 2 days from now
801 > \>both our minds are elsewhere
802 > \>we get to the prehistorics section
803 > \>see the dinosaur skeletons
805 and no, they DONT WALK
807 > \>then we get to the early humans or some other stuff i dunno
808 > \>i dont remember why but we stopped in front of this neanderthal skull on display
809 > \>we just look at it
811 > \>kinda reminds me of something
812 > \>"you know.. this looks somewhat familiar.." - i say without looking at ella
813 > \>ella doesnt say anything at first, but then
814 > \>"BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA"
815 > \>she loudly cracks an evil laughter in the middle of the fucking hall
816 > \>she looks at me with a funny evil face
817 > \>with a crackled, badly impersonated manly voice
818 > \>"i am a powerful demonic force! i am the harbinger of your doom! let me hear you scream in terror!"
819 > \>X______X im melting right now
821 > \>she gives me a warm smile and starts laughing
822 > \>i remember why that skull looks so familiar
823 > \>SHES FUCKING DOING MURRAY FROM FUCKING MONKEY ISLAND 3
824 > \>mylifeiscomplete.jpeg
825 > \>everyone is looking at us like wtf is wrong with these people
826 > \>i get so excited my hands start shaking
827 > \>"oh.. i think i did it a bit too loud" - she whispers as she keeps chuckling
828 > \>"you.. you played mi3?" - i ask her stammering
829 > \>"oh i love it anon!" - she grins
831 > \>"i figured you would remember murray, you being the adventure gamer and all"
832 > \>i have nothing to say
833 > \>at that moment, ella stopped being a crush i could hardly admit to
834 > \>and turned into my lifes goal i have no idea what to do with
835 > \>we started talking about monkey island
836 > \>then full throttle
837 > \>indiana jones and the fate of atlantis
838 > \>all lucas arts games
839 > \>old school adventures
840 > \>we were cracking jokes
841 > \>impersonating key characters
842 > \>acting out funny moments
843 > \>it got to the point of singing theme songs
844 > \>thats when we realized we are sitting next to a prehistoric animal
845 > \>in the middle of the museum
846 > \>talking about weird games and such like nerds
847 > \>security is giving us funny looks
848 > \>we laughed about it and decided to leave
850 > \>it was getting late, sun was about to set
851 > \>"hey anon, come home with me. have dinner with us again!" - ella grabbed my arm and asked me cheerfully
853 > \>and we went to her house once more
854 > \>her parents gladly welcomed me to their home
855 > \>jake was in a summer camp or some such
856 > \>during dinner, all we could talk about was games
857 > \>and anime, comics, the whole nerd nine yards
858 > \>her mom and dad were giving each other smirky looks
860 > \>i was losing my mind
861 > \>ella... the perfect girl...
862 > \>ella invited me to her room
863 > \>and that was the first time ive seen ella's room
864 > \>anime posters on the walls
865 > \>cute bed sheets with girly flowers and stuff
866 > \>A WHOLE FUCKING BOOKCASE FULL OF VIDYA
867 > \>her neatly folded clothes everywhere
868 > \>a full repertoire of fashion pete studied to understand for a whole semester
869 > \>a cute and girly elegance
870 > \>and a hardcore and tomboyish geekdom
871 > \>the best of both worlds, if there was ever such a thing
872 > \>"...im at a loss for words" - i declare with my mouth wide open
873 > \>ella chuckles and playfully punches my shoulder
874 > \>"shut up.. what were you expecting? wall-to-wall posters of some boyband?"
875 > \>"hahah.. no, i.. i love it.." - i look around with a huge grin on my face
876 > \>"good. now im going to beat your ass in mario kart again. sit down"
877 > \>as she forcibly seats me on the floor and in front of a small tv
878 > \>huge amounts of cute hearts gush out of all of my bodily orifices
879 > \>ella goes over to jake's room and brings the n64
880 > \>and we start playing
881 > \>this is heaven...
883 > \>she kicks my ass in mario kart again
885 > \>she kicks my ass yet again
886 > \>next we try split screen 007
887 > \>and guess what.. she kicks my ass again
888 > \>she fires up the PS and starts showing me MGS
889 > \>ive never played MGS until then, yeah dont judge ok?
890 > \>she starts telling me about the story, going crazy excited
891 > \>shows me the controls and starts watching as i fumble around
892 > \>laughs at my stupidity and ineptness every now and then
893 > \>i play and play, lose myself, immerse myself in the excellence of MGS
894 > \>then i pause the game
895 > \>and realize that she has fallen asleep with her head on my shoulder
896 > \>her sweet vanilla and berry scent filling my lungs once more
897 > \>she looks peaceful and happy
898 > \>i quit the game and put down the controller
899 > \>i gently embrace her exquisite body
900 > \>putting my arms behind her back and under her beautiful legs
901 > \>the thin veneer of her skirt rolls back, revealing her thighs
902 > \>i carefully carry her to bed
904 > \>just look at her and appreciate her unbelievable beauty for a moment...
905 > \>its 3 am, her parents must already be asleep
906 > \>i dont have any way of returning home
907 > \>i turn off the tv and the lights
908 > \>grab a pack of neatly folded tshirts and use them as a makeshift pillow
909 > \>and curl up on the floor
910 > \>its hard to fall asleep, the floor is too uncomfy
911 > \>i hear shuffling behind me
912 > \>i figure she must be turning around in her sleep
913 > \>then i feel her hand on my back
914 > \>then over my shoulder
915 > \>and she rests it on my chest, pulling a thin sheet of blanket over both of us
916 > \>her small feet play around and curl up next to mine as she spoons me
917 > \>i grab her cold hand and press it firmly against my chest
918 > \>she mumbles and plants her face to the back of my neck
919 > \>and i fall asleep, madly in love
921 > \>next morning when i woke up, she was still sleeping
922 > \>during the night, we ended up facing each other
923 > \>when i opened my eyes, i found myself looking at her angelic face
924 > \>her hair was all over me
925 > \>her hand was still holding on to my shirt
926 > \>like the time it was back on the plane
927 > \>i could feel her breath on my lips
928 > \>i wanted to stay there
929 > \>more than anything, i wanted to lay next to her forever
930 > \>and i wanted to kiss her so much
931 > \>but all i could think of was nicole's face
932 > \>i carefully reached for my phone in my pocket
933 > \>nicole left me a text
934 > \>"hey you! wanted to surprise you before you go to hong kong, im in LA! call me when you wake up! i love you :)"
937 > \>my mouth dries up
938 > \>my heart starts beating to a fight or flight moment
939 > \>i gently put ella's hand down
940 > \>and back off without waking her up
941 > \>i grab my things and exit the house without anyone noticing
943 > \>she tells me to meet her on venice beach
944 > \>grab a bite to eat on the way
945 > \>coffee to wake up
946 > \>the moment i see her i realize the mistake ive made
947 > \>my hair is all messed up
948 > \>im still wearing yesterdays clothes
949 > \>i didnt even brush my teeth
950 > \>and my entire body smells like ella's perfume
951 > \>nevergofullretard.avi
953 > \>she sees me and starts running towards me
954 > \>and jumps to my arms
956 > \>she digs her lips into my mouth
958 > \>starts kissing me furiously
959 > \>then she slows down
960 > \>and then completely stops
961 > \>her hands and arms lose their grasp on me
962 > \>slowly pulls away
963 > \>she gently pushes me back to take a better look at me
964 > \>she sees the guilt and fear on my face
965 > \>her pupils dilate
966 > \>she starts turning red
967 > \>her eyes fill with fury and anger like nothing ive seen before
968 > \>her right hand pulls back and flies into my face
969 > \>it lands perfectly
970 > \>my ears start ringing
971 > \>my vision is blurred
973 > \>i dont have anything to say for myself
974 > \>i just stay there, with half of my face completely numb
975 > \>unable to face her, unable to look her in the eyes
976 > \>she slowly turns around and starts walking
978 > \>"...you coming?" - she looks at me with tear filled mad eyes
979 > \>i obey and start following her
980 > \>we sit on a bench overlooking venice beach
981 > \>we sit there for a few minutes before she finally asks
982 > \>"did you sleep with her?" - she doesnt look at me
984 > \>"did you kiss her?"
986 > \>she stops for a moment
987 > \>i realize whats coming.. and its too late
988 > \>she turns to me with a face full of tears of anger
989 > \>"you... youre in love with her????"
990 > \>i cant say anything. i just sit there, my head as low as it can go
991 > \>"for how FUCKING long, anon?" - her voice trembles
993 > \>"how long?..." - she asks again, barely audible
996 > \>she hesitates for a moment and then starts talking again
997 > \>"i should have known... for the past month, you were all ella could talk about anon"
998 > \>i couldnt believe what i was hearing
999 > \>i wake up to the shock of this revelation
1000 > \>"she talked to you about me?" - i ask her, with a skeptical and messed up face
1001 > \>"yeah.." - she opens her eyes wide, sarcastically
1003 > \>"can you believe that? you became her number one friend"
1005 > \>"her bff" - she violently fingerquotes her snappish remark
1006 > \>i dont have anything to say to nicole
1007 > \>"...and i cant be angry at her for getting close to you, anon..."
1009 > \>"but you..." - she gets close to my face and puts her index finger sharply to my chest
1010 > \>"you should have known better" - tapping my chest with her finger
1012 > \>"...answer me anon" - she whispers
1015 > \>"WHAT??" - i turn to her
1016 > \>she jumped back with a surprise
1017 > \>this was the first time she has seen me scream at anyone, let alone her
1018 > \>"what do you want me to say nicole? that i love her? that i care for her? that no matter how i feel about you, i cant control how i also feel about her? that even when you and i were just friends and ella was with pete, i couldnt help but feel a strong desire for her?"
1019 > \>nicole didnt talk. she just stood there and watched me talk with a heartbroken face
1020 > \>"what do you want me to say nicole?"
1022 > \>"what do you want me to say? that the first thing i felt was relief when pete told me that she broke up with him?"
1023 > \>"ok..." - she whispered and stared into the distance
1027 > \>we continued to talk
1028 > \>getting angry at each other at times
1029 > \>but it was more upsetting than vexing
1030 > \>after an hour of furious argument
1032 > \>even when pissed off, nicole didnt hold back her love for me
1033 > \>she got close to me and put her head on my shoulder
1034 > \>and we started watching the sunset
1036 > \>"you know what anon..." - she spoke kindly, like a whisper - "there isnt enough sex tricks in the world to keep you away from ella"
1037 > \>i froze. i felt like a sharp object has pierced thru my chest
1038 > \>"and there isnt enough small jokes, bouquet of flowers or boxes of chocolate that pete can come to her door with"
1040 > \>"so he can hold on to ella..."
1041 > \>i couldnt speak... couldnt breathe
1042 > \>"and its alright anon... no matter what we do, you guys were made for each other" - she spoke as she gave in to reality
1043 > \>"so you go ahead. i told you that you were mine until we both decided otherwise"
1045 > \>"and we both decided otherwise, you know that..."
1046 > \>i sat there... with nicole's head on my shoulder
1047 > \>staring blankly into the crowd of people on venice beach
1048 > \>knowing that theres no amount of rights i can make to fix the wrong i did her
1049 > \>the person who loved me so blindly, so vigorously
1050 > \>that even in the moment of her defeat, she still wanted what was best for me
1051 > \>"just do one last thing for me.." - she whispered
1052 > \>i turned my face to her
1053 > \>and kissed her with a passion like i never have
1054 > \>she held my face in her small hands
1055 > \>and broke our bond
1056 > \>"go" - she said, trying to hold back her tears
1057 > \>"go before i change my mind... go!" - she started to cry
1058 > \>holding her hand, i got up. i hesitantly started stepping away
1059 > \>our arms stretched and reached their length as our fingertips grazed each other and broke away
1060 > \>i started walking backwards...
1062 > \>realizing what i have done
1063 > \>feeling like shit
1064 > \>nicole wasnt looking at me
1065 > \>her head dropped
1066 > \>the palms of her hands were trying to hide the tears
1067 > \>she was quietly sobbing
1068 > \>i gasped for air and forced myself away from her
1069 > \>trying not to think about it
1070 > \>running away like an asshole
1071 > \>i must have walked for 3 hours
1072 > \>not knowing what to do
1073 > \>it was getting late
1074 > \>i finally made my decision
1076 > \>and gave the driver ella's home address
1078 > \>i arrive at ella's house
1079 > \>i approach her door
1080 > \>not knowing what to expect
1083 > \>my heart stops when i see her
1084 > \>she lowers the cellphone from her ear
1086 > \>"that was nicole..." - she shakes the phone in her hand
1087 > \>her beautiful green eyes are bloodshot
1088 > \>tears running down her face
1089 > \>she closes the door
1090 > \>"ella.." - i breathlessly shriek
1091 > \>i turn my back to her door
1093 > \>and then collapse
1094 > \>i start crying like a bitch
1095 > \>this is just too much
1098 > \>the door quietly clicks open again
1099 > \>the afternoon sun casts a shadow over me
1100 > \>the shadow eagerly waits
1101 > \>"what did she say to you..." - i can barely speak
1102 > \>"that you loved me more than her, you stupid fuck"
1103 > \>a cold hand grabs my collar
1104 > \>and pulls me with force
1105 > \>i stumble and walk to ella's door, following her stern pace
1106 > \>tears and snot on my face, ugly as fuck
1107 > \>as i pass thru the doorway
1108 > \>she turns around
1109 > \>violently slams the door with a flick of her hand
1110 > \>and pins me to the shut door with force
1111 > \>stuffs my face with her lips
1113 > \>my heart is beating like a jackhammer
1114 > \>she just stays frozen
1115 > \>her lips nailed to mine
1116 > \>her chilled hands hanging from my collar
1117 > \>her intense kiss gently becomes tender
1118 > \>and she stops kissing me
1119 > \>clumsily wipes my wet face with her hands
1120 > \>sporadically chuckling her heart out while crying tears of joy
1121 > \>"you look like shit.." - she laughs nerveously
1122 > \>i smile and laugh
1123 > \>"come on.. you need a shower"
1124 > \>she drags me to her bathroom and gives me fresh towels
1125 > \>i take a shower for an hour
1126 > \>trying to calm my nerves, trying to make sense to this calamity
1127 > \>i take way longer than usual
1128 > \>knowing that when i get out i will have to face her
1130 > \>i finally get out and wrap myself with her towels
1132 > \>ella is in her pjs
1134 > \>she must have had a shower too
1135 > \>shes sitting on her bed all curled up, holding on to her legs
1136 > \>she has a deeply concerned look on her face
1137 > \>i sit next to her and stare at the wall
1138 > \>expecting a million questions
1140 > \>"go ahead, say it"
1141 > \>i dont understand.. i mean say what???
1142 > \>"say it" - she tells me again with a calm voice
1145 > \>she puts her hands on my face
1146 > \>and her lips on mine
1147 > \>and gives me the warmest, most gentle kiss i could have imagined
1148 > \>we fall back to the bed
1151 > \>while her freezing hands caress my skin like ice
1152 > \>her hot soft lips brush against my face like a velvet cloth
1153 > \>i hold her tightly
1154 > \>she opens her arms and lays back
1155 > \>presents herself to me with an innocent smile on her face
1156 > \>i take my time and study her
1157 > \>i dont want to rush anything
1158 > \>"my parents are gone for the day... we're aaaaall alone" - she sings playfully
1159 > \>i have all the time in the world
1161 > \>and kiss the notch under her neck
1163 > \>ella holds on to me tightly and locks me into herself with her legs
1164 > \>we stay like that for a long time
1165 > \>kissing and touching each other
1166 > \>enjoying the warmth of our bodies
1167 > \>she pulls her knees up, almost reaching my head
1169 > \>she carefully grips the edge of the towel on my waist
1170 > \>starts to slide it down surgically
1174 > \>and flashes me a suggestive smirk
1175 > \>her legs are gingerly dancing on my upperbody
1176 > \>i can feel the muscles on her legs expanding and contracting as they move around
1177 > \>i slide my hand from her back to her bottom
1178 > \>i feel the magnificent curvature of her strained hips
1179 > \>and catch the waist of her pj bottoms with my fingers
1180 > \>i slowly pull them down along with her panties
1181 > \>i feel a gush of warmth in my hand
1182 > \>i touch her silky smooth bare bottoms
1183 > \>she bites her lips and dives in to my lips again
1184 > \>shes kissing me strenuously this time
1185 > \>hot air licks my face as she exhales from her small pointy nose
1187 > \>and then i closed my eyes
1188 > \>and pressed my entire body againts hers
1189 > \>we slowly curled up into each other
1190 > \>getting closer and closer
1191 > \>you would think there is a physical limit to how close you can get to someone
1192 > \>that limit is not really as apart as it may seem
1193 > \>there is a point where you fail to distinguish skin from skin
1194 > \>we hugged each other so tightly
1195 > \>grabbed onto each other like dear life
1196 > \>as if we somehow let go, we would fall to our deaths
1198 > \>i dont remember at which point we were actually "having sex"
1199 > \>with that amount of love and such a strong intimacy
1200 > \>you dont really understand whats going on
1201 > \>you dont pay attention to how youre "satisfying" yourself and your partner
1202 > \>its not about tips and tricks anymore
1203 > \>its not about knowing what limb to touch
1204 > \>or where to kiss, lick or do whatever
1205 > \>that level of unity transcends virtually every "health" magazine bullshit you can read about sex and intimacy
1206 > \>time loses meaning
1207 > \>that night, i dont remember for how many hours
1208 > \>we were inseperable
1209 > \>we didnt say a word the entire time
1210 > \>no screaming, no loud noises
1211 > \>just heavy breathing
1212 > \>lots of heavy breathing
1213 > \>the only thing that i cared
1214 > \>her hands werent cold anymore
1215 > \>her touch was warm to me, for the first time
1216 > \>and the only memory i cherished more than anything else
1217 > \>was the feeling that as if we have known each other for all our lives
1218 > \>that night, ella wasnt a couple months old friend whom i cheated on my girlfriend or betrayed my best buddy for
1219 > \>she was the one person dearest to me, above everyone else
1220 > \>she was my missing piece
1221 > \>after a long long time has past, i remember finally whispering
1223 > \>and falling into the deepest, most relaxed sleep i have ever had
1225 > \>it was almost dawn when i woke up
1226 > \>ella woke up with me
1227 > \>"i have to tell you something..." - i told her
1228 > \>she looked at me, scared and upset
1229 > \>"i have to go to hong kong for 2 months... today... i wont be able to spend the rest of summer with you..."
1230 > \>whatever she was expecting, hearing this news relieved her
1231 > \>she sighed and planted a passionate kiss on my cheek
1232 > \>"its ok... we will see each other in school" - she whispered to me softly
1233 > \>"after all, i have you now..."
1234 > \>i couldnt have been happier
1235 > \>hong kong seemed like a punishment after everything that has happened
1236 > \>but i knew ella would wait for me
1237 > \>ella sent me away
1238 > \>convinced me that if we spent even more time
1239 > \>or if she would come to LAX to see me off, the distance and time would be even harder to bear
1241 > \>as i was dragging my feet to leave her, i kissed her so much, she had to physically push me away
1242 > \>giggling with a sleepy face
1243 > \>"go now! go or you will miss your flight!"
1244 > \>i went home, hastily packed my bags and left for the airport
1245 > \>all i could think of was her
1246 > \>the cab driver had to ask me "where to?" like 3 times
1250 > \>after i landed and got settled in hong kong
1251 > \>we started talking on skype
1252 > \>it was new back then and the connection was shitty
1253 > \>but it was better than nothing
1254 > \>eveyday we would talk, sometimes for hours
1255 > \>there was so much time difference, i was almost an entire day ahead of LA
1256 > \>but we made it work
1257 > \>our intimacy was not limited to sex
1258 > \>and our friendship was more than just ambiguous flirting
1259 > \>the things we shared, the moments we lived
1260 > \>even tho they were digital and thousands of miles apart
1261 > \>i was still in heaven
1264 > \>i came home from work one day
1265 > \>and there was no response to my calls
1266 > \>figured, she must be busy, or out, or something else came up
1267 > \>didnt think of much and went on with the rest of my day
1268 > \>next day, same thing
1269 > \>well, unless you are a seriously paranoid person, you dont think of worst case scenarios
1270 > \>until your buddy calls you
1272 > \>didnt remember how i responded to that
1273 > \>i still dont, i only know what pete, mom and dad told me
1274 > \>turns out, i dropped the phone and was unreachable for an hour
1275 > \>dont know what happened in that hour
1276 > \>then they say that i called my folks
1277 > \>by then, pete told them already
1278 > \>and they knew i wasnt goint to be able to make my way back on my own
1279 > \>as i was speaking to (or screaming to) mom, dad was already buying plane tickets
1280 > \>i didnt realize my mom was crying on the phone
1281 > \>knowing her son was in so much pain and she was unable to help me
1282 > \>i was screaming so much, my voice was all but gone
1283 > \>at some point, my dad picked up the phone
1284 > \>trying to calm me down
1285 > \>years later, i asked him once, just once, what happened that day
1286 > \>never seen a man that white as he told me what happened
1287 > \>how terrified he was over how i was feeling
1288 > \>i asked him because the only thing i could remember was pete telling me
1289 > \>"she's gone... she's gone..."
1293 > \>i talked to pete one more time before dad arrived
1294 > \>that i do remember
1295 > \>you go numb after so much pain
1296 > \>and start behaving like a robot...
1297 > \>he knew i wasnt gonna be at the ceremony with him
1298 > \>we talked about things no one wants to know
1299 > \>but you just have to know
1300 > \>like what happens to a car travelling at 60mph
1301 > \>when it gets rearended by another car
1303 > \>and stops when it wraps around a telephone pole
1304 > \>there was nothing anyone would want to look at
1307 > \>while her family was burying ella
1308 > \>i was on a plane back to states
1309 > \>didnt have the power to go back to LA
1310 > \>and be there with her family
1311 > \>didnt want to go back to college
1312 > \>and be all by myself
1313 > \>i just wanted to go home
1315 > \>a year has passed since ella's death
1316 > \>mom and dad were trying to play it cool
1317 > \>pete was the only one keeping me sane
1318 > \>he too was affected by ella's passing
1319 > \>but he was stronger
1320 > \>he didnt love ella the way i did
1321 > \>nicole was keeping her distance
1322 > \>avoiding me as best she could
1323 > \>on the anniversary of her death, i decided to visit ella's grave
1324 > \>got on a plane to LA
1325 > \>i still remember the first time i walked thru those cemetery gates
1326 > \>its never easy to visit the dead
1328 > \>and stayed there for an hour
1329 > \>just crying, not knowing what to say
1330 > \>im not a religious person
1331 > \>and i dont believe in afterlife
1332 > \>i had this feeling inside me that no matter what i said
1333 > \>she wasnt there to see
1335 > \>after a while, a boy walked up to me
1337 > \>young jake too came to visit her sister
1339 > \>"you should come and visit my folks, anon. they will be happy to see you"
1340 > \>i accepted his kind invitation
1341 > \>when we arrived at their home
1342 > \>the air was thick, filled with sorrow
1343 > \>her mother smiled when she saw me
1344 > \>held me in her arms as if i was her own blood
1345 > \>"oh am i happy to see you" - she cried
1346 > \>they were relieved they didnt have to be alone that day
1347 > \>ella's father was already half drunk
1348 > \>but he was joyful when we started talking about ella
1349 > \>jake was sitting between his mom and dad
1350 > \>they wouldnt let go of his hands the entire time
1351 > \>drawing power from knowing that they are not alone
1352 > \>and that jake is still here
1353 > \>after talking about ella
1354 > \>reminiscing what little time i was able to spend with her
1355 > \>her mom showed me into ella's room
1357 > \>the room was left untouched
1358 > \>nothing was changed since ive been there more than a year ago
1359 > \>even her neatly folded clothes were still on her chair
1360 > \>her vidya archive
1361 > \>her anime posters on the walls
1362 > \>her mom opened a drawer
1363 > \>and took out a cd case and a letter
1364 > \>and handed them to me
1365 > \>"i believe these are for you, anon"
1366 > \>she put them into my violently shaking hands
1367 > \>she kissed me on my forehead and left the room
1368 > \>i sat on the bed
1369 > \>the bed in which we had the chance to spend a single night together
1370 > \>a single night...
1371 > \>i looked at the cd case
1372 > \>and immediately burst into the tears i was holding back before
1373 > \>crying my eyes out, i started reading her letter
1374 > \>the letter she couldnt send to hong kong
1376 pic related, letter and the cd case
1378 > \>after i read the letter
1379 > \>i was in fetus position on her bed
1381 > \>the love and the loss were too much
1382 > \>someone slowly sat next to me
1383 > \>and i felt a familiar hand on my face
1384 > \>i put my head on her lap
1385 > \>while nicole caressed my hair
1386 > \>and calmed me down
1387 > \>"im here..." - she whispered
1388 > \>and hugged me as she too quietly cried
1391 > \>nicole and i got closer
1392 > \>she stopped avoiding me
1393 > \>and we became friends again
1394 > \>she understood what i have been thru
1395 > \>and altho ive broken her heart
1396 > \>she knew i didnt mean to
1397 > \>she knew how much i loved ella
1398 > \>she knew the love ive felt for ella didnt mean i didnt value her
1399 > \>2 years later we started dating again
1400 > \>moved to chicago together
1401 > \>another 2 years after that, we got married
1402 > \>and i slowly forgot about ella
1403 > \>while organizing old stuff at our house
1404 > \>i came across ella's letter and the mi3 cd case
1405 > \>when i started feeling bad
1406 > \>she convinced me to write the story down
1407 > \>so i could get it off my chest
1408 > \>"i dont want to read it" - she said with a sad face
1409 > \>"it will be too much for me. but you have to write it down"
1410 > \>her love and care were heavenly
1411 > \>"you need this anon"
1416 > \>last night after i finished writing my story
1417 > \>nicole convinced me to frame ella's letter
1418 > \>i looked at her, i was almost about to cry
1419 > \>she gently held my face in her hands
1420 > \>"its good to remember anon" - and she planted a tender kiss on my lips
1421 > \>"she was a good person. you loved her and she loved you"
1422 > \>i dont even know what to say
1423 > \>i framed the letter and put it on my nightstand
1424 > \>we got under the blankets on a cold winter night
1426 > \>she embraced me and placed her head on my chest
1427 > \>and softly whispered into my ear
1428 > \>"youre mine anon, and im yours..."
1429 > \>"and as i have said before..." - she was almost asleep
1430 > \>with an amorous smile on her face
1431 > \>"until such a time comes we both decide otherwise, nothing will change that"
1432 > \>and i fell asleep next to the woman i loved
1433 > \>embracing the woman that loves me
1435 and this is the end of my story...
1439 * (http://pastebin.com/7H7SJwNd)
1442 * [ella](https://cloud.githubusercontent.com/assets/7390577/6205365/50393e9a-b520-11e4-8bdc-155a4615f5e7.jpg)
1443 * [ella 2](https://cloud.githubusercontent.com/assets/7390577/6205364/50269f4c-b520-11e4-87ba-a1dcd59d25a8.jpg)
1445 * [Quick and Dirty Read Backup Dump](https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B7WYx7u6HJh_SXJIazB2c2RYNEk/view?usp=sharing)
1446 * [4archive - /b/595592516](https://4archive.org/b/thread/595592516)
1447 * [fgts.jp - /b/595592516](https://fgts.jp/b/thread/595592516/) - IRC login required.